New Year New Lore

   This year as started out with clean eating and getting  more active!! In November of last year I started to realize that I had gained a great amount of weight. I didn’t know how much weight but, I could feel that it was a lot!! so I decided to weight my self I was scared of the scale. When I looked down and saw the number a BIG 219 POUNDS !! I started to cry, I couldn’t believe I let my self go that much and you see I’m only 5’3 so for me it’s a big number. So what did I do? I said enough is enough, I stared to research diets and talked to my Doctor. We finally agreed on then, I decided that I was going to educated myself all thru December and really commit myself starting the year.

   I would like to tell you a little History about my weight in the past. I have struggled with my weight all my life. I was always going up and down on my weight, during the first year of High School I got really obsessed with my weight and getting on a diet. I got to a point where I didn’t eat anything during the day accept for one slice of cheese and a glass of milk A DAY!! I started to lose weight but with it came depression I didn’t want to leave my house or talk to anyone. When my mom saw this she decided that it was time to get help, so I did and I got better but I was still depressed and unhappy with the way I looked. So I got on a diet again this time with supervision. But now instead of not eating I would it and puke it out with out anyone knowing. That came to an end the day my mom started to notice. I gained a little weight not a lot, but I was still not happy. When I graduated I went on a diet again this time I was on the right track. I was in a good place in my life, I was healthy, and one day something in me snapped. My disorder flipped on its self so now instead of not eating I started to eat more and more and more. So ever sense then I just ate when I got sad or mad, the one that was always there was the depression. I got married to a great men had the cutest children but I was still depressed. When you are depressed you make everyone around you unhappy. So what Changed? well one day I woke up looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself ” YOU ARE ALIVE SO LIVE, LOVE AND CARE ABOUT YOURSELF, BECAUSE IF YOU CANT LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO LOVE ANYONE ELSE” So I did and I started by stop trying to control everyone around me, my next step was to get my self healthy.

So here we are in February and I have lost a total of 19pounds not bad for only a month and half, I’m not starving myself or nothing like that I just fallow the Keto Diet, work out and  drink lost of water. Im loving myself more and more everyday there for loving those around me even more. Im happy and I hope some one reads this and see that you are not alone !!! lets all do this journey of self love together !!

Lots of love Lorenia

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